Or if you know a little about html you can change the color code in the text of the html itself. Color codes can be found by doing a good search.

On a different topic — truly appreciate your sight. My wife was recently diagnosed with borderline personality disorder — which explains a lot of her behavior the past years. But I had my own share of issues and codependency to work through. It all fell in my lap recently and was almost more than could be handled, but some friends and professionals got me through and we are both learning more about how to respond. I also think your friends are right about the anonymity of the sight. God’s people are not always kind or fair with their shepherds and our leaders are too often politicians rather than being shepherds themselves.

Because I went through several years where I was so overwhelmed that I barely functioned – and there was a continual, unceasing mental “to-do” list running through my head. I would lay awake at night, unable to shut it off. Go through my day, unable to shut it off. To grit my teeth and do ONE thing from the list was a huge victory.

Especially at that time, I found that which I needed the most was the most difficult. I’m not a pastor, but for me actually going to church was just too much. Thankfully, I had a pastor and friends who would not accept any of my “reasons” when I wasn’t there. I often went purely out of duty, but it was good for me, and fed me.

I would encourage you when you say that praying is only “going through the motions.” Going through the motions has value – God gives His gracious gifts and answers the prayers of all His children.
From the intro to LW – “Saying back to Him what He has said to us, we repeat what is most true and sure.” Praying is not a duty or requirement – God knows our needs without prayer – we are the ones who benefit, even when we’re really not up for it.

I know that I’m not telling you anything you don’t already know, but like those who encouraged me when I would have separated myself from the gifts I so desperately needed, I would encourage you to go through the motions, even when you are sure you can’t.

I have to confess, though, that I’ve come to see it as the key to her own efficiency and I’ve started using them sometimes. I usually start a “to do list” for the week and it does feel good to cross off stuff. If there gets to be too much stuff that I’m NOT crossing off, I just delete the list and don’t thinnk about it any more. How’s that for a constructive approach? : )